Let Me Show You.

For 11 years you have been my best friend my sister the one who takes care of me, the one that I love more above all other than my parents. You are my twin flame, the only person that I cannot stay away from. We like everyone have our downs, but those downs have made us stronger. We have learned and made mistakes with each other. And above all else there is nothing more important to me than our relationship. 

Molly Ann DeLano, you are my everything. The love of my life. Don’t you ever forget that. Through thick and think we will make it through, we will grow old together, we will be there at each other’s side when all comes crash down on us. We are inseparable and no one, no thing, will ever tare me away from you. 

If you cannot tell….i love you.

You’re my twin flame =]

If you were unaware of what has been happening since august of last year, well I have become quite a different person. Many large decisions have been made and many large life changes have come to pass. I lost the thing that I believe that I would have loved the most, it would have been the greatest part of my life. I lost myself into a very far away place, for months I have searched and tried to fill myself back up with the love that i felt for people. I loved no one, I cared for no one, I was an empty shell tracing the ends of the earth, it was as if i turned off everything I was. I tried to keep myself as busy as possible working, school, projects, big ideas, sleep, cleaning. I ran away from the emptiness. 

For months almost a whole year..this is how i felt. Only until last weekend did it pass. I dont know what came over me I dont know how I became better. But, Rachel is back. And I am here to stay. I am stronger, wiser, filled with more love than I ever had before. 

I am sorry for all those that i neglected and mistreated in the last year, it was not my intention. I hope that everyone that i love, that you could understand this for me. My friends you are my family and to the people who have been with me everyday every step of the way you are my soul mates. 

I believe that I have definitely decided a few things. AND it has been an amazing experience figuring them out =]

Bottle of wine and a day to myself it all i needed =]

There has been some very vast changes in my life. It is crazy what one year can bring and do for someone. Such joy and sorrow has swept over me, but through it all I have become so much better and stronger than I was.

I have such wonderful people to thank for helping me through it all.

Without you I don’t know if these past few months could have been possible. Each day gets easier, yet some days do seem a little harder than others, I just remind myself of how far I have come…I am proud of myself.

There are words that have been said and things that have been done that cannot be taken back.

There are people we love and wishes that have been made and lost.

Tears have been shed and heart broken for people not worth it.

Futures lost and memories gained.

Every day is battle and each day we live we win.

Take nothing for granted, take nothing too lightly, take nothing too serious, take your life for what it is, take all the love you can get, and take who you are to show the world.

Give everything you have to everyone you meet and give all the love you possess to everything inbetween.

Today will be yesterday, tomorrow will be today, and soon it’ll be too late.

no option of rewind, no option of replay, no option of what if, and no option of regain.

Time is ticking and there is nothing to stop it, the world doesn’t wait so dont wait for the world.